you--exams--yeah--you
24 hours before test: nothing to study. after all it's just a listening test (English proficiency)
7 hours before worrying: still zzzZZZzzz
4 hours before the time: woke up and attended sociology economics class (this week's classes ARE COMPULSORY!)
1 hour before the doom: at KFC meeting the B and the F.
15 mins before that crap: arrived punctually ... miraculously ...
5 mins before that sh*t: still waiting for other course mates to arrive.... CALMLY....
1440: test starts (not on time) ... but still as calm as a sea without sharks...
during test: SH*T... what's that word again? was it ARbitrary or ORbitrary ... bodoh la.. how can i make such mistake ... i know I've seen this somewhere ...
1600: ber-emo-emo-ing at class. other coursemates left for home. me and a few more girls sulking and planning on the next *evil* plan
every semester passed by and you never seemed to fail me... making me down each time i got ????-ed (<--insert verb) by you.. walking outta the hall feeling like a loser with the big L on the forehead. I never seemed to have got over you. but someday, you'll just put me thru all that trouble with flying birds ...colours i mean.... and it all belong to the past.... past.... past... pass.... i mean pasT....
Monday, March 30, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
that solemn vow,...
which lasts you for a lifetime (our granny's era), or not (our era) ...
*marriage*
people get married at such a young age these days. In our 21st century, it's not really a norm to settle down at 20 or so isn't it? there are too many things to pursue, for some ambitious peeps i think...
personally, being the 'weaker' sex as claimed by the dominant male chauvinists.... i do, think that we ought to be equipped with education and human rights just so to protect our dignity and of course,human rights in the event that misfortune takes place... self created misfortune that is...
much like I-gotta-settle-down 'cause I-can't-afford-to-lose-him... or ... now it's the time to lay back and produce babies. so let's get married 'cause it's part and parcel of life.
if not .. women ages like the Christmas tree and loses its function/role after 25 years old (er...i mean 25th of Dec)
well, everyone can plan their future but as far as i can see, people will make a whole load truck full of dungs, promising that I'll love you forever and ever... truthfully, you'll never know about that forever thingy 'cause you're no Creator... and therefore, shit happens.
no matter what, one should never fear nor retreat under any circumstances and shine like a hero in his armor, keep challenging every tasks/obstacles till one worn out by age. not by defeat. that's when you can truly determine your strength and self-worthiness.not beaten up by those jerks 'cause you can never be too sure whom is The One, ergo, smart girls do not rely solely on that piece of precious paper you signed in R.O.M, but always on your precious self <3 -end-
*marriage*
people get married at such a young age these days. In our 21st century, it's not really a norm to settle down at 20 or so isn't it? there are too many things to pursue, for some ambitious peeps i think...
personally, being the 'weaker' sex as claimed by the dominant male chauvinists.... i do, think that we ought to be equipped with education and human rights just so to protect our dignity and of course,human rights in the event that misfortune takes place... self created misfortune that is...
long ago where those days when 'I do' is being taken as a solemn vow. a vow for a lifetime--till death do us apart... now... till divorce do us apart...
much like I-gotta-settle-down 'cause I-can't-afford-to-lose-him... or ... now it's the time to lay back and produce babies. so let's get married 'cause it's part and parcel of life.
if not .. women ages like the Christmas tree and loses its function/role after 25 years old (er...i mean 25th of Dec)
well, everyone can plan their future but as far as i can see, people will make a whole load truck full of dungs, promising that I'll love you forever and ever... truthfully, you'll never know about that forever thingy 'cause you're no Creator... and therefore, shit happens.
no matter what, one should never fear nor retreat under any circumstances and shine like a hero in his armor, keep challenging every tasks/obstacles till one worn out by age. not by defeat. that's when you can truly determine your strength and self-worthiness.not beaten up by those jerks 'cause you can never be too sure whom is The One, ergo, smart girls do not rely solely on that piece of precious paper you signed in R.O.M, but always on your precious self <3 -end-
Monday, March 16, 2009
a profession as a whore...
earns you a bomb. I'm talking about 'high class' pimping. yup.
the trend sets in. more demand from young chics for LVs and Gucci. who can blame 'em? materialistic? not being brought up in a decent background? or the quest for looking elegant?
those damned bags.
Japan; one of the biggest, notorious porno producer, exclusively recruits young girls (sometimes virgins and school girls) to entertain the world of horny bastards and sluts. hey, it's not cheap to pay these gals to show their assets mind you. my point is, girls turned sluts because of the need to satisfy their hunger for designers. 'cause people will be judging you from the Lvs you carry instead of peeping into your loose cunt beneath that lingerie. of course, being young, naive, easily lured into the world of blings often set loose boundaries to where these girls had decided to ditch their values and forge for temporary luxuries. truth is... they cannot afford Guccis and Pradas. they're not well-off or loaded with cash. they'd rather be starved dead than caught dead in faux leather.
On top of fashion statement reinforcement (clothes, shoes, accessories, etc), good style apparently looks more interesting with fake boobies and nose. as if LV cries for help after being chaperoned away by plain-jane. and after they're done with the boobs and nose, they felt that deep-set eyelids is a must. one thing after another, and the list goes on..... welcome to the world on 'fine-living'!!
so i'd lose the thought of becoming a whore when one pimp (she's a whore too) approached me to do the job. whoa. not only it comes with the package service thingy, the pay is also friggin lucrative to resist. a month ... the top 'sales'-slut.. can earn like RM 10,000+++... wtf... it's like.. you don't need education to slog your youth away, just simple A-B-C.u.n.t to pump those juices flowing... who can blame those bimbos if they can't read moral and thought humping was a better option.... I'm sorry. i'm not trying to be biased. considering some whore actually thought of it as a profession.. wtf. (note: one recount in the UK i clearly recalled, a prost wrote a book of her sexual encounters and how she thought the profession was awesome-- all that she ever wanted)
sadly, of anyone whom i least expected. such disgrace befallen upon my surroundings. recently, this girl I'd never thought would so daringly exposed herself to this sexual gimmick by attracting all wrong attentions. 1st time of all, i'd thought it was gross. it's all too norm a scenario for me to imagine. anyone having sex is simply a biological set of moves. but knowing someone who's acquainted to you doing this... simply.. unforgivable....
--that was the sole reason for my desperate concern for that young lass.too depressing for any pretty lass like her to sell away her body... and soul... most importantly, values... -end-
ps: No names were mentioned... don't argue with me on this. you may leave comments but please read at your own pleasure, if not, offense.
the trend sets in. more demand from young chics for LVs and Gucci. who can blame 'em? materialistic? not being brought up in a decent background? or the quest for looking elegant?
those damned bags.
Japan; one of the biggest, notorious porno producer, exclusively recruits young girls (sometimes virgins and school girls) to entertain the world of horny bastards and sluts. hey, it's not cheap to pay these gals to show their assets mind you. my point is, girls turned sluts because of the need to satisfy their hunger for designers. 'cause people will be judging you from the Lvs you carry instead of peeping into your loose cunt beneath that lingerie. of course, being young, naive, easily lured into the world of blings often set loose boundaries to where these girls had decided to ditch their values and forge for temporary luxuries. truth is... they cannot afford Guccis and Pradas. they're not well-off or loaded with cash. they'd rather be starved dead than caught dead in faux leather.
On top of fashion statement reinforcement (clothes, shoes, accessories, etc), good style apparently looks more interesting with fake boobies and nose. as if LV cries for help after being chaperoned away by plain-jane. and after they're done with the boobs and nose, they felt that deep-set eyelids is a must. one thing after another, and the list goes on..... welcome to the world on 'fine-living'!!
so i'd lose the thought of becoming a whore when one pimp (she's a whore too) approached me to do the job. whoa. not only it comes with the package service thingy, the pay is also friggin lucrative to resist. a month ... the top 'sales'-slut.. can earn like RM 10,000+++... wtf... it's like.. you don't need education to slog your youth away, just simple A-B-C.u.n.t to pump those juices flowing... who can blame those bimbos if they can't read moral and thought humping was a better option.... I'm sorry. i'm not trying to be biased. considering some whore actually thought of it as a profession.. wtf. (note: one recount in the UK i clearly recalled, a prost wrote a book of her sexual encounters and how she thought the profession was awesome-- all that she ever wanted)
sadly, of anyone whom i least expected. such disgrace befallen upon my surroundings. recently, this girl I'd never thought would so daringly exposed herself to this sexual gimmick by attracting all wrong attentions. 1st time of all, i'd thought it was gross. it's all too norm a scenario for me to imagine. anyone having sex is simply a biological set of moves. but knowing someone who's acquainted to you doing this... simply.. unforgivable....
--that was the sole reason for my desperate concern for that young lass.too depressing for any pretty lass like her to sell away her body... and soul... most importantly, values... -end-
ps: No names were mentioned... don't argue with me on this. you may leave comments but please read at your own pleasure, if not, offense.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Idol of the Month (March)
Katy Perry
notwithstanding, her sense of fashion is outrageously--cool. out of the world. insanely one of a kind. in a better way or none. this gorgeous gown she adorns, snapped my attention with envy. so pretty and so taken aback by words.. simplistically gorgeous until I'd decided to better credit the designer or else I'm overwhelmed with guilt. C'mon. I salute the person who comes up with this piece. and that gurl who wears it ?.... elegance executed and knocked everyone else to the floor at that what-so-ever-event-of-the-night. finally, mission accomplished.
a few more hours gone...
no thanks to my bimbo low-skilled IT knowledge.
not that you gotta be an IT expert to handle it. just that, I'm such an idiot that I practically deleted the whole damn blog template. and to make things worse. with no backups. so...
I'm so exhausted. I can no longer face the screen. I'm slowly blinding my vision.... fading... away.......
not that you gotta be an IT expert to handle it. just that, I'm such an idiot that I practically deleted the whole damn blog template. and to make things worse. with no backups. so...
- my links disappeared
- layout screwed up
- lucky 'nuf, my posts are still up =.=
- another few more hours, gone!!!
I'm so exhausted. I can no longer face the screen. I'm slowly blinding my vision.... fading... away.......
my wallpaper
is soooo pretty in pink. and flowery... and most importantly, uncomplicatedly perfect (for me =>)
i took a turn and never look back when i 1st set my heart into retro vintage.
the clothes, the tunes, the collections, everything including die-hard beauty icons like the famous-don't-need-me-to-intro Audrey Hepburn.
Audrey ages so gracefully <3
how come every women that era pulls off that look oh-so-effortlessly without plastics?
and the men. so gentlemen ain't they?
not extremely handsome but they execute the charisma of male chivalry, in which on auto-pilot mode transformed the frogs into 'handsome' prince... *dreamily fantasizes*
vintage is making a comeback and not to mention, sizzling hot now. practically every fashionista worshiped each piece of oldies and adorned in mesmerizing, jaw dropping, unique outfits. i'm telling you, those clothes are one of its kind. pretty much emphasis on cutting and linings instead of printed cloths, unlike modern dressings.
Natalie Portman
21st century 'Aud Hep': she's so gorgeous!!
those meticulous art of work. sewn attentively into pleats, made into the most perfect sought after dress. upholding its value after decades. and still being classified as 'the classic' ... like the famous LBD-- timeless piece of priceless fashion,which never fails to keep its promise in making an ugly duckling a swan.
if one individual still looks at vintage as being old-fashioned, old-fashioned as it is. but do keep in mind that fashion is repetitive if one's not being naive. and ugly or not, one has the power to dress/undress, mish mash and throw in layers of colors/pieces to revive the dead to live. don't blame fashion. blame the one who can't attempt that fight. that fight to look alright....
that's my current outlook on my lappy's wall.
i took a turn and never look back when i 1st set my heart into retro vintage.
the clothes, the tunes, the collections, everything including die-hard beauty icons like the famous-don't-need-me-to-intro Audrey Hepburn.
Audrey ages so gracefully <3
how come every women that era pulls off that look oh-so-effortlessly without plastics?
and the men. so gentlemen ain't they?
not extremely handsome but they execute the charisma of male chivalry, in which on auto-pilot mode transformed the frogs into 'handsome' prince... *dreamily fantasizes*
vintage is making a comeback and not to mention, sizzling hot now. practically every fashionista worshiped each piece of oldies and adorned in mesmerizing, jaw dropping, unique outfits. i'm telling you, those clothes are one of its kind. pretty much emphasis on cutting and linings instead of printed cloths, unlike modern dressings.
Natalie Portman
21st century 'Aud Hep': she's so gorgeous!!
those meticulous art of work. sewn attentively into pleats, made into the most perfect sought after dress. upholding its value after decades. and still being classified as 'the classic' ... like the famous LBD-- timeless piece of priceless fashion,which never fails to keep its promise in making an ugly duckling a swan.
if one individual still looks at vintage as being old-fashioned, old-fashioned as it is. but do keep in mind that fashion is repetitive if one's not being naive. and ugly or not, one has the power to dress/undress, mish mash and throw in layers of colors/pieces to revive the dead to live. don't blame fashion. blame the one who can't attempt that fight. that fight to look alright....
Friday, March 13, 2009
those things i long for...
are all in vain.
vanity. possessions. love. all those most sort after , lust for things in life.
this little things I'd wished for. the simplicity of life. basic needs for survival of sanity.
why am i not so blessed. not so 'lucky'. and why do i think my parents are not so supportive, unlike others.
simply put, they've got their own plans to make me a stronger individual.
to not depend on them for what i wanted to achieved.
every inch of success, ounce of sweat and torturous moments. went through alone.
bitter sweet memories.
and the only thing that made me alive till this moment is the power of Nichiren's Buddhism.
till this day, i wanna thank for all those peeps who has been there for me through thick and thin. i can never be so grateful and till the day i'm buried six-feet-under, you're not forgotten...
vanity. possessions. love. all those most sort after , lust for things in life.
this little things I'd wished for. the simplicity of life. basic needs for survival of sanity.
why am i not so blessed. not so 'lucky'. and why do i think my parents are not so supportive, unlike others.
simply put, they've got their own plans to make me a stronger individual.
to not depend on them for what i wanted to achieved.
every inch of success, ounce of sweat and torturous moments. went through alone.
bitter sweet memories.
and the only thing that made me alive till this moment is the power of Nichiren's Buddhism.
till this day, i wanna thank for all those peeps who has been there for me through thick and thin. i can never be so grateful and till the day i'm buried six-feet-under, you're not forgotten...
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
tagged by sam love..
What do you like to do?
dance, primarily
What do you noticed first in the opposite sex? Face or Body?
face lor. then bod.
Do you have tattoos?
Nope..
Do you drink or smoke?
NEH
What is your favorite food/restaurant?
jap. chinese. practically most stuffs. but there are exceptions: like i crave peanut butter but not nuts in my nasi lemak.
What is the most valuable item you've ever lost? (if there's any)
omg. it has gotta be my most precious digicam. still mourning for it...also,also, my hp given by my darl. omg. sad... *sobs*
Do you believe in love at first sight?
never. no such thing for me
Have you ever cheated during examination before?
wow ... of course. at least i attempted a few times. in the end, i succeeded. never got caught.
Have you ever kissed someone u werent attracted to?
wow. so far nothing that i can recall of. i wouldn't bet on it though
Have you ever kissed someone on a first date?
nope never.
Have you ever liked someone who has a gf/bf?
thankfully not.
Ever had an eating disorder problem?
heck no
Do you believe in God?
erm.. yeah
Do you consider yourself romantic?
sometimes. helplessly...
Do you like someone right now?
dope, yeah
Do you like someone you can't have?
neh.i don't have a crush on that many guys. just all the wrong guys.
What is your worst embarassing public moment?
wow. so much of embarassment i couldn't recall. seriously.
What are you doing now?
this. duh.
Tag 5 people to know more about them :
1. grace miriam
2. adam ng
3. yap sze sze
4. sean ooi
5. lim jinni
dance, primarily
What do you noticed first in the opposite sex? Face or Body?
face lor. then bod.
Do you have tattoos?
Nope..
Do you drink or smoke?
NEH
What is your favorite food/restaurant?
jap. chinese. practically most stuffs. but there are exceptions: like i crave peanut butter but not nuts in my nasi lemak.
What is the most valuable item you've ever lost? (if there's any)
omg. it has gotta be my most precious digicam. still mourning for it...also,also, my hp given by my darl. omg. sad... *sobs*
Do you believe in love at first sight?
never. no such thing for me
Have you ever cheated during examination before?
wow ... of course. at least i attempted a few times. in the end, i succeeded. never got caught.
Have you ever kissed someone u werent attracted to?
wow. so far nothing that i can recall of. i wouldn't bet on it though
Have you ever kissed someone on a first date?
nope never.
Have you ever liked someone who has a gf/bf?
thankfully not.
Ever had an eating disorder problem?
heck no
Do you believe in God?
erm.. yeah
Do you consider yourself romantic?
sometimes. helplessly...
Do you like someone right now?
dope, yeah
Do you like someone you can't have?
neh.i don't have a crush on that many guys. just all the wrong guys.
What is your worst embarassing public moment?
wow. so much of embarassment i couldn't recall. seriously.
What are you doing now?
this. duh.
Tag 5 people to know more about them :
1. grace miriam
2. adam ng
3. yap sze sze
4. sean ooi
5. lim jinni
Friday, March 6, 2009
I'm breathless...
when i 1st laid my eyes on this kitsch.
O.M.G... i fainted, figuratively. how can YSL be sucha genius. i'd prolly trip dead with this lovely on. yet, b4 i could set foot in it... i'm burnt-- in my pockies...what the fudge...
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